已经好多天我没睡好,老公很生气,和我说:"从我们认识,拍拖,什么什么我都提到"你"~现在还为你失眠为你哭,他问我,这样的友谊值得我哭吗?"
我和他开始拍拖,就介绍给你认识,说你是我最好的朋友,认识我们的人只要说到我就会提到你,我们的友谊也是让别人多么的羡慕~包过我自己的老公,开玩笑说你把我的心抢走.
对,曾经很多误会,你所说的第一次,中五的时候,我已经不是很记得了,不好意思,那时我也很不成熟,我们的友谊也开始在建立着,在那之前我从来没有好友,去和中学同学见面也会找你一起.我从小学就被欺负,心里难免会害怕,很难相信别人.
后来我们一起约好来学院读书,结果被老师骗了,我2月来,你3月.我为了和你一起住,一直问我同屋的,小房几时要走?我的好友来没地方住怎么办,最后小房也走了,你也来了,我们更加的好了.虽然不同batch,可是我们还是很好.后来学院要搬了,我们还是一起住,你还帮我整理东西,我真的很庆幸我交到了好友.
后来,搬去新家不久,你的同学都不和我说话,不和我笑,我也挺压力,可是我没说,就静静的,回到家就去房间,不会在客厅逗留.有天回家他们突然和我说话,我也很惊讶,后来不久就熟了,我也有新朋友了.有天他们告诉我,他们不和我说话,因为你和他们说我不喜欢他们,不熟吧.我也笑笑,心跳的也很快,不可能吧?我没想很多,后来每次回到家他们就开始说这样说那样,我也就静静.甚至我班的说,曾经你和他们说过我的坏话,所以我才很好奇,巧合还是什么??我放在心里,直到那天我和你吵架,因为那一晚,我问你你有没有看到我剪刀,你曾经和我借过,我不知道你放那里,我很急着用,明天就要交报告了,我也不知道你心情不好,直接大声和不耐烦对我说:"你讲什么?我不懂啦!"我也开始发脾气,发泄在FB,后来你和我解释,我也开始听你解释,我也去查清楚,别人怎么会和我说实话?我选择忘记,和你做回好友,也和你道歉因为不信任你,我只是怕失去朋友或第三者在背后闹.我们答应彼此,一定要信任多方,不管怎样,珍惜难得的友谊.后来没事了.
有天晚上,你打来给我哭诉怕别人骗你,一直拖,你也快没钱了,我很想帮你,可是我刚结婚刚找到工作也没钱借你,我教你怎样去网上找工作,甚至在12点多打给我的agent,他那时怀孕了,可是我还是比较担心你的生活,他没听电话,我就信息他我做工的地方要找人吗?我的朋友很急工作.他隔天回复我说会帮忙.我就给你email,叫你快点sent resume.我去做工不到2天,你就来interview,我和我team leader说:"下午我朋友回来interview,他很需要工作,人也很快学东西."他说:"原来是你朋友,他会自己看."很庆幸其中1人没来,所以只应征你一个人,每天我都再问你有没有中选,最后agent说有.我的心情是超级无敌开心的. 我记得,当你走时,你和我hi,然后他们说你朋友啊?很漂亮哟.然后我说是呀,好朋友.他们开始问我,我们怎样认识,我就开始说我们怎样认识,曾经被朋友在背后挑拨,不说话一段日子,最后和好回来,友谊更加坚固,希望不要在有人搞破坏. 有好几次不同的人问我们怎么这样好啊,说什么,不可以介绍好友一起工作,不然友谊会变质,我不相信,他们就说经验给我听,以前在maxis做工介绍好友,然后友情变了,她也停做工了.
我有埋怨过,“S”对我很不好,每天给我和"B"脸色看.同事说她是这样的.就当作没看到.所以我和"B"还不错,他肯帮助我即使是新人.最后他生病了也停工了.我又开始看"S"的脸色.她时常问B,为什么公司一个进来比一个美,谁最美,然后B就会来和我埋怨.我很好奇怎么刚开始她还很兴奋问我和你怎么这么好,后来越来越给脸色看.我没有得罪她啊.有次我穿padini的灰色衣服和孕妇长裙,她尽然说你没有衣服是吗?做么越来越aunty?我和她说,以后你怀孕一直不舒服也会穿大件的衣服的,她就说不会,会叫老公啊,妈妈啊,买漂亮的衣服给她不会像我这样.过了很久我们也没说话,虽然坐我隔壁,有突然有天,他问起我自己私事,做么进回教,老公家人怎样(我不知道她又会篇什么故事了.)因为公事的人也知道我私事,也来问过我!甚至malaysia team的!你生病1个星期,她一直问你做么,很想知道,幸好我没有理他,不然整个公司都知道.之前A有在,好让他们说东说西,现在A不在,变成我了.
现在她来说我讲你坏话,你认为我有必要介绍你进来,说你坏话,让你觉得我们的友情很不值得吗?这样我做了你这样久的好友,担心你,为你想,你觉得我真的会那样吗?我很伤心你怎么信刚认识的人,而不去想我不会这样,为什么我的担心,你可以说我妒忌,说我在背后搞鬼,你知道你信不该信的人我很伤心吗?因为从以前到现在我都在帮你,维护你,担心你,你说我假心假意.我真的很生气怎么那些人吃饱没事做,乱编故事!甚至新加坡的J,我以为她很好,和我说你坏话甚至要套话,可是我什么都没说啊.甚至我们的故事.他说CIC的J,和她说我们闹翻了很久,所以我才很好奇为什么他们在背后搞鬼?我从来没有不信任你,后来又有新加坡R的事情,也说是CIC做的,因为他问我有没有人的we chat叫不懂什么名的. 我走了这样久他们才说?证据呢?叫他们在我面前讲啊.我很恨别人误会我,更加讨厌自己的好友不信任我因为刚认识的人,我可以不叫你提放他们吗?
你好好想想吧,我是怎么对你,帮你的,而她们只是用一张嘴就破坏了我们6年的友情.
2014年5月3日星期六
2013年7月14日星期日
Hello, I am back ^^
Hello, I am back J
Well, I am here since for so long.
Many things happened during these few months, all
about my life, my job, down, happy and etc.
For all of the moment, I learn a lot of things even I am
not practice it. Sometime life is like this, you know your mistake, you wanna
change it, but sometime you do not practice it due to some of the reason.
I do not have dream before, eg: what you want to do after your
training? What job will you apply after that?
Answer: I have not decided yet. See the situation
after my internship.
NOW, I have a lot of things to do. AND i have my dream, my future.
-I need to do my report and pass up then finish my diploma
life.
-I need to earn more money and find the job after I pass
up my assignment.
-I need to support myself after that.
-I need to become more independent.
-I need to face what I decided, be tough.
-I must work hard and live good.
ETC……
BETWEEN..
My hair is short. During the moment I wish my hair
grow faster, I want to diet, I want to keep slim, keep fit, I wanna eat
healthy, live healthy, all is what I think, so when I will practice it? I don’t
have the answer, but if I work it you all will realize I practice it. Kekekeke =D
OKAY!!^^
Life will become tough than now after this. So I must
be tough, be tough not means I will not cry . I will challenge myself, so that I
can move on. I will do something that people think I will never do it, I will
make the challenge in my life.
I just share some of what i think, and I will be back when i free, tata :)
Nothing is impossible. I will just make it.
2012年12月20日星期四
20december2012
People said,21th is the end of the world. I not believe it. See, today we are still alive.
But 20th night, i lost control, and almost end my life like that, yes, i am stupid.
People keep patient with me but i just think, i can told everythings, the people is closed with me, sure will understanding me well, trust me and see what i change but maybe all are what i think,not other think.(I am happy for no negative thinking when i stress).
The world = cruel . Accept it. You can treat by people with bad attitude even you do the right. Normally, people will ask,what for being a good person? Why god need to give us a heart ? I also have no answer about it. Don't show any sad face or stress of you cannot bear even in front of the people who close to you, don't show your unhappy, don't tell your story, don't show the stress and speak out, just keep it, people will think is funny , like this also can't handle? Weak. I can be strong, I can bear all, I can just acting i am happy actually, but because i trust you, i respect you, that's why i told everythings about me,what happened everyday,etc....I am tired of writing all of these,blog for me is share my feeling, happy, sad, crazy. But for other just like why you wanna show what you are thinking to other.
Yes, i have no the qualification to talk about love, i can love other well, take care other, but i dont know how to take care myself, i think when beside u,u will take care me,but when i m alone, i try to take care myself well, don't let myself get hurt. Who saw? God.
Yes, people just will simpathy with me but no love. Accepted. No one fault but myself.
I think no more speak out and blog for me. I will keep thinking i am okay, positive, all i do to myself before.
Don't expect too much,yes, i always alone and independent before, now got somebody with me facing many trouble and solve the trouble, i too depends on the people who i love.
Until now, i am sad, is super sad. Christmas is coming soon, but inside my brain, no more santa,no more snow, no more movie which playing at astro....
Now, i just hope everythings go smoothly.
The others, i have no the qualification to wish to hope.
20december2012,i remember .
But 20th night, i lost control, and almost end my life like that, yes, i am stupid.
People keep patient with me but i just think, i can told everythings, the people is closed with me, sure will understanding me well, trust me and see what i change but maybe all are what i think,not other think.(I am happy for no negative thinking when i stress).
The world = cruel . Accept it. You can treat by people with bad attitude even you do the right. Normally, people will ask,what for being a good person? Why god need to give us a heart ? I also have no answer about it. Don't show any sad face or stress of you cannot bear even in front of the people who close to you, don't show your unhappy, don't tell your story, don't show the stress and speak out, just keep it, people will think is funny , like this also can't handle? Weak. I can be strong, I can bear all, I can just acting i am happy actually, but because i trust you, i respect you, that's why i told everythings about me,what happened everyday,etc....I am tired of writing all of these,blog for me is share my feeling, happy, sad, crazy. But for other just like why you wanna show what you are thinking to other.
Yes, i have no the qualification to talk about love, i can love other well, take care other, but i dont know how to take care myself, i think when beside u,u will take care me,but when i m alone, i try to take care myself well, don't let myself get hurt. Who saw? God.
Yes, people just will simpathy with me but no love. Accepted. No one fault but myself.
I think no more speak out and blog for me. I will keep thinking i am okay, positive, all i do to myself before.
Don't expect too much,yes, i always alone and independent before, now got somebody with me facing many trouble and solve the trouble, i too depends on the people who i love.
Until now, i am sad, is super sad. Christmas is coming soon, but inside my brain, no more santa,no more snow, no more movie which playing at astro....
Now, i just hope everythings go smoothly.
The others, i have no the qualification to wish to hope.
20december2012,i remember .
2012年9月11日星期二
To my dear~
TO: My dear S'S,
I don't know will you see this blog or not,i just feel wanna blogging : )
You know,we are quarrel always,but you scold me until my heart broken. I know the started point you want me to change become more good,be more strong in this world. That's why i am still here for you and think every single word you told me before. Almost three day i feel i m not hungry at all, that's why people tell you,hey,you are slim now =0=''
Yesterday midnight, i fever,and i can't fall for sleep,feel want you to accompany me,but i think is almost 4somethings,you are sick too,working early in the morning,so i am no dare to find you.
I eat 2 panadol and try to sleep with listening the piano music, suddenly i cry,i think about how we meet,how we pass the nine months. Seriously,i wanna be with you until forever,i don't care the world end or what,i just wanna be with you. I fall the deep love with you.
By the side,I think many times,i will lost my mum if we married, but i am selfish,i want you and family, but i trust,like you said your friend marry with chinese girl,first her family is not accepted,but years by years, the family will accept this truth. You know that? I need you in my life,really need you,even you scold me,but i learn many things from what you scold and grow up a slowly,even need you repeat somethings many many times. Do you remember? You told me,if a people really care you,they will scold you your mistakes,if the people ignore everythings,that's means you are nothing already. So i should said thank you to you~I always tell you,i love you. You can't even imagine how much i love you with my heart.
I don't care if you have no house,no money,you can't give me everythings,but if you be with me,love me,you are my world my everythings.
I need to say sorry,i am a girl who easy jealous,but for you,i try to change,just because you are so important to me and for my own good, i don't want to feel jealous easy,but sometimes just because of care,i cant control. I know to speak malay but not so well,that's why i always use "Macam" to express somethings,so i hope you don't missunderstanding and because a word we quarrel here and there. I need your love,you can scold me whatever you want when i do mistake,but please,don't always do this just because of your temper, i will sad,really sad.I think you forget you said :" Actually i don't want to scold you like this,i wish to talk nicely with you too,but you are not worth to let me talk nicely." Maybe because of your angry you said like this,but i feel hurt,sometimes i face you,i think this :'( I hope no next time~
You know me well,even a move you know what the next step i wanna do. I am touching,when i sleep you will hug me tight even a small move,you will blanket me everytime, is already nine months,you can do the same~ Somethings increase,and somethings decrease,the good things is increase,i appreciate it. What i promise i will practise it,i know you know it,so don't worry,what i should change i will,and i have a lots of things to tell you,but somethings keep repeat,i afraid you will boring to listen it,i write it out.
I think i stop here,and i need to do my assignment already : )
Please always remember me,I love you my hubby ^_^
FROM: Your dear S'S
I don't know will you see this blog or not,i just feel wanna blogging : )
You know,we are quarrel always,but you scold me until my heart broken. I know the started point you want me to change become more good,be more strong in this world. That's why i am still here for you and think every single word you told me before. Almost three day i feel i m not hungry at all, that's why people tell you,hey,you are slim now =0=''
Yesterday midnight, i fever,and i can't fall for sleep,feel want you to accompany me,but i think is almost 4somethings,you are sick too,working early in the morning,so i am no dare to find you.
I eat 2 panadol and try to sleep with listening the piano music, suddenly i cry,i think about how we meet,how we pass the nine months. Seriously,i wanna be with you until forever,i don't care the world end or what,i just wanna be with you. I fall the deep love with you.
By the side,I think many times,i will lost my mum if we married, but i am selfish,i want you and family, but i trust,like you said your friend marry with chinese girl,first her family is not accepted,but years by years, the family will accept this truth. You know that? I need you in my life,really need you,even you scold me,but i learn many things from what you scold and grow up a slowly,even need you repeat somethings many many times. Do you remember? You told me,if a people really care you,they will scold you your mistakes,if the people ignore everythings,that's means you are nothing already. So i should said thank you to you~I always tell you,i love you. You can't even imagine how much i love you with my heart.
I don't care if you have no house,no money,you can't give me everythings,but if you be with me,love me,you are my world my everythings.
I need to say sorry,i am a girl who easy jealous,but for you,i try to change,just because you are so important to me and for my own good, i don't want to feel jealous easy,but sometimes just because of care,i cant control. I know to speak malay but not so well,that's why i always use "Macam" to express somethings,so i hope you don't missunderstanding and because a word we quarrel here and there. I need your love,you can scold me whatever you want when i do mistake,but please,don't always do this just because of your temper, i will sad,really sad.I think you forget you said :" Actually i don't want to scold you like this,i wish to talk nicely with you too,but you are not worth to let me talk nicely." Maybe because of your angry you said like this,but i feel hurt,sometimes i face you,i think this :'( I hope no next time~
You know me well,even a move you know what the next step i wanna do. I am touching,when i sleep you will hug me tight even a small move,you will blanket me everytime, is already nine months,you can do the same~ Somethings increase,and somethings decrease,the good things is increase,i appreciate it. What i promise i will practise it,i know you know it,so don't worry,what i should change i will,and i have a lots of things to tell you,but somethings keep repeat,i afraid you will boring to listen it,i write it out.
I think i stop here,and i need to do my assignment already : )
Please always remember me,I love you my hubby ^_^
FROM: Your dear S'S
2012年9月5日星期三
Recently....
I have many things to do,but,insonmia,stress..i cant do my things well and i just like a lazy girl,waste the time,I CANT LIKE THIS ANYMORE!!
Many things happened too,but i have no enough time to write all out,one of that is ppl tell me that my mistake,i think about many days and insonmia=^= because i take it seriously,its about my future and i need to change,inside that i feel hurt,sorry to say that.
Already 5.30am now,tomorrow have text,i just do the revision awhile,but i hope i can pass it.I have many stress now,about my study,i am scare T^T huuuuu~I hope i can gradute on time,i hate why i skip class before,why i get sick before!!
Now i need rest,sweet dream to all~
Many things happened too,but i have no enough time to write all out,one of that is ppl tell me that my mistake,i think about many days and insonmia=^= because i take it seriously,its about my future and i need to change,inside that i feel hurt,sorry to say that.
Already 5.30am now,tomorrow have text,i just do the revision awhile,but i hope i can pass it.I have many stress now,about my study,i am scare T^T huuuuu~I hope i can gradute on time,i hate why i skip class before,why i get sick before!!
Now i need rest,sweet dream to all~
2012年8月12日星期日
2012年4月15日星期日
I will accept what you talk,
BUT,
15/4...
IS A TERRIBLE DAY..
Very Very Terrible......
I will change,but the way u did,make me feel pain feel hurt,terrible.....The way.....terrible
15/4...
IS A TERRIBLE DAY..
Very Very Terrible......
I will change,but the way u did,make me feel pain feel hurt,terrible.....The way.....terrible
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